So much has changed

We are getting married.

How did we go from May 2nd to now, I'm still not sure. I do know one thing, it's wonderful. When I wake up, she is there. When I lay down to sleep, she is there. We have been engaged for more than a year and our wedding is this fall. I don't know why she is with me, because I don't deserve that girl. I guess this makes my blog title obsolete, but I like it. It serves as a reminder of what I have done and what I deserve and the mercy I have been shown.

God I miss college, I didn't know it then, but I lost a lot after that night. All my friends are gone and my new ones are lame. I know I have to grow up sometime, but 23 is too soon. I want to walk downstairs into the party room and fucking let loose. Instead my lil bro is coming over after work. We'll probably watch Arrested Development and shoot the shit.